Friday, November 28, 2008

some dumb random formula

hehehehehe

Study = No fail
No Study = Fail

Combine these two..
Study +No study = Fail+ No fail

Factorise..
Study( 1 + No) = Fail ( 1 + No)

Cancel (1 +No) and you get...
STUDY = FAIL!!!

So continue studying if you want to fail..................

why?

Sigh. What is happening to the world? So much bloodshed, so much death. For those who don't know what is happening in India now, please start reading some news. Why?? Such madness. What drives people to commit these.......killings? Bali bombings, 9/11 suicide bombing, attack on former Pakistani prime minister Benazir Bhutto, acid attack on girls going to school and this latest attack. And here we are, partying, going to movies, lepak-ing. I realised I should not take the peace in Malaysia for granted. Free from bombings, shootings, riots.....maybe got some war of words between politicians, but that's within the parliament and newspapers only. Maybe the time will come where the word peace will not exist anymore. Maybe. Who knows? In spite of all these, we should take heart that God is in control of everything. Things will work out the way He has planned. We will never know how, for His thoughts are more than the grains of sand on the beach, His wisdom far beyond any human understanding.

Thank you Lord for the suasana yang aman dan damai in Malaysia. Help us not to take it for granted but continue to live in harmony with one another.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

just one of those feelings

That's it. The first signs of emo-ness is coming. I can feel it. And I'm not proud of it. Quite annoyed and frustrated. Just drives my mind crazy, rendering me unable to think properly and rationally.


When you plan to read. You delay and delay and delay. Eventually you start, but you just can't focus.
When you sms people, finding someone to kacau or ask questions, but no one replies you.
When you go online, hoping to meet friends online so you can talk to them and drive your loneliness away, but no one seems to be online or maybe busy/away/be right back.
When you meet friends online, in your heart you cry out "Hooray!! So and so is online!! I can talk to him/her." But in the end there's no reply.
When you listen to music and try enjoy it, but there's noise around all the time.
When you open your Itunes a dozen times but it closes all the time for no apparent reason.
When from listening to music, you try to make it, but somehow you fail terribly.
When you feel like smashing your guitar to bits because you know you can play better, but currently you are playing like kanasai.
When you feel like playing pc/ps2 games, but you feel you shouldn't because you've already played for 3 hours.
When you go online all the time, hoping to do something beneficial, but in the end you end up doing retarded stuff like facebooking/blogging/checking out pictures/finding guitar tabs which are always inaccurate.
When you wish you could be like other people, who seems to be doing something all the time.
When before the holidays, you plan to JAM YOUR ASS OFF! But in the end nothing happens.

Walauwei why my life so sad one.

Enough of this crap. Let's get to something funnier. I stole this from my brother's blog. Actually it was a comment made by his friend, and I think it's funny. If you're a Malaysian, you should understand better.

Legend has it that George Washington, America's first president, chopped down a cherry tree in his youth. George gives the tree a good swing and chops it down with an axe. His father sees the damaged tree and asks his son if he knows who did it. George is quoted bravely admitting the truth :-

'I can't tell a lie Pa; you know I can't tell a lie. I did cut it with my axe.'

This is a satire of how Malaysian politicians circa 2008 may have reacted to this question.

PM Badawi -
I did not cut down a tree, I was just taking a nap underneath it

Najib -
I swear that I have never MET that tree

Hishamuddin -
...but I only own a keris, how to cut down the tree

Dr. M -
Apa nama cherry tree, I chopped it down because, I don't like the idea of Pak Lah sleeping under it.

Chua Soi Lek-
Yes it was me, I resign as a caretaker of this orchard

VK Lingam-
It could have been me, it might have been me but I don't think its' me

Anwar Ibrahim-
I DID NOT do it, and I'm not giving any DNA samples to you.

Khir Toyo-
The new state government should just trim the grass and not waste time asking who cut down the tree

Ahmad Said ( Terrenganu MB)-
I chopped it because cherry trees are most expensive to maintain than durian trees.

Azalina Othman -
The cherry tree is not included under my tourism MOU so I chopped it down. Besides there were unauthorised signboards put up around the tree.

Shabery Cheek -
I challenge you to a debate on tree cutting

Samy Vellu-
I chopped it because HINDRAF members were using it as a meeting point

Wira Ali Rustam -
We have planted durian trees for 50 years and we will plant them for another 50 years, we do not need cherry trees, apple trees, pear trees and all these other foreign trees.

Rais Yatim -
You must see the bigger picture. Ahmad said cherry trees are expensive to maintain.
Ali Rustam said that is against our national identity and I needed to test my new axe, so you see- it's a win-win situation.

Sharir Samad-
I cut the tree because we could no longer afford to subsidise it.

Karpal Singh-
The bigfoot creature did it.

Bung Mokhtar-
The big monkey did it

Khairy Jamaluddin -
I did not do it, neither did the mat rempits. By the way, what's a cherry tree?

Lim Kit Siang -
In response to Khairy - cherry tree you also dunno. you are an insult to oxford.

Nazri Aziz -
Racist, racist, racist. When we cut down durian trees nobody made a fuss.

Malaysian citizens-
Oh for heaven's sake! Somebody plant something before we starve to death!

Monday, November 24, 2008

walk the talk?

I can't stop thinking about the camp. About all the stuff the speaker said. Stuff that sent my mind reeling and thinking. Stuff that challenged me to be a so-called better person, a better friend, a better christian. During one of the talks, he mentioned something about worship. Do we really mean it when we sing songs of worship, of praise and adoration? Do we ponder on the lyrics of the song, making sure that the worship is really meaningful worship, and not just empty singing ? Can we walk the talk? ( I mean singing lah)

Take a look at the bridge of the song Hosanna by Hillsongs:

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things I see
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I have for Your kingdom come
As I walk from earth into eternity

Such a nice song, with powerful and strong lyrics. Lately, I have been wondering, when I sing this song, do I really mean what I sing? Do I have such strong faith to be able to say that "Lord, break my heart for what breaks Yours"? Can I endure the pain, shame, abuses, agony that Jesus went through for me? "Everything I have for Your kingdom come". Am I ready to sacrifice all I have now, to God? Am I ready to give up all my posessions, things that I treasure so much? Am I ready to give up my life for Him?

Another song by Hillsongs, it's called Everyday :

Everyday
It's You I live for
Everyday
I follow after You
Everyday
I walk with You my Lord

It's You I live for everyday (x3)

It's quite obvious, isn't it? "It's You I live for everyday". A simple statement, but soooo hard to follow. God remembers everything we say. Everyday, every moment, every single thing we do, do we put God in the picture? Do we glorify God in our actions, thoughts, talks? When we fail to do something, ok maybe not we, but I, silently curse in my heart. Is my life pleasing to God? Susah sangat.

Don't get me wrong here. I'm not trying to restrict worship. I'm not saying that the song is bad. In fact, the song is good. (Hillsongs wei!!) I'm not trying to judge people too. If I were to judge, I would judge myself, because I have so many flaws. But the point that I'm trying to justify is, when we sing these songs, I feel that we must understand the true essence of the song, to put this worship to action. If we keep singing blankly without really applying it, what good does it do to us? Isn't our worship an empty one?

Aaah, headache already.
(If I offended anyone here, I sincerely apologise. It was never my intention to do so. I'm just trying to express my views since I have a blog!)

A start!

So after much thinking and harassing from my friends, I finally decided to start blogging.

Hello everybody!!! My name is Matthew Lee. (as if you guys dont know) To tell you the truth, I really dont know how to start this blog. Actually I didnt want to blog, because I simply just can't think of anything to write, and I could actually spend this time doing other stuff ( guitar, reading, games). But it's holidays anyway, so why not?
Yeahhhh, I think people like hannan and mariel will laugh at me now...

Just got back from NSCFL camp. It was awesome! Everything was fun (and funny)! The people, officers, speakers. It was really amazing to be able to meet so many brothers and sisters in Christ all around Malaysia. The games was cool, although my group lost in almost every game and never won any. And there was this presentation thing, we were supposed to compose a song. Hahahah and a guy from my group nearly had his pants fall off! It was hilarious. Ok maybe I shouldn't have said this, in case the guy somehow finds this blog, he will kill me. But most importantly, this camp has drawn me closer to God. The talks at night by Ps. Michael Williams really challenged me and set my mind thinking. I got to experience God in this camp, something which I had been longing all this while but never really got to. Thank you SU for organising this camp! What a pity I can't go next year anymore, SPM...sigh...
It's so sad to leave everyone, even though I didnt really make many friends. And now I'm stuck at home, BLOGGING.
This sucks. I can't get use to the sudden silence at home. All the noise from the campers is gone, I dont think I will be able to meet up with the campers anymore. This is why I hate going camps sometimes. You go there, happy happy gembira gembira, make friends...hang out with them, go crazy with them, then suddenly it's time to balik kampung. And most of the time its 90% you won't be able to see them anymore. But I guess it's what you learn from the camp that is most important. And apply it in your daily life.

Ok lah. Talk to much already. Time to go. Ciao